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June 19, 2024
I was given a year ban from the discord and social features of the site for supposed “constant developer harassment”. The site motto is currently my only method of reaching the outside world, so I’m thankful that I have as much of a presence here as I do for you to be reading this.
I’m aware that I am very blunt and very stubborn. It’s just how I am. These conversations are never personal, at least on my end. Simply disagreements on RA politics or set design – far from “harassment”. A lot of the people I supposedly “harassed” are people I would consider friends, or at least are willing to be friendly towards. RA is a creative outlet to share pngs at the end of the day, taking anything personally is a mistake.
I wish I could truly love this website and sing its praises without putting a bunch of asterisks, but there’s so much bullshit that it makes it hard to truly immerse myself and enjoy it. Not necessarily related to my current situation, but for a long time with each passing week it just felt like the site got worse and worse, staff making the worst possible decisions at every opportunity and going farther away from what I used to like about it. Occasionally there is hope the site will get better, making a good change or two, but it’s quickly followed by 5 bad ones that just add more restrictions and more bureaucracy to the creative process. I’m sorry, but I’m not going to just sit back and take it while more and more of my rights get taken away from me. I’ve been contributing to this website for longer than most of the current staff have even been around, I deserve to have a voice. My voice is ignored but I can only hope that they can’t ignore everyone.
A lot of the time it feels like no one really cares about the work I do for the site – that I’m replaceable and some new developer that’s willing to comply will take my place. Given that the ability to do developer work for the site is the only right I’m given in most cases, clearly that’s not the case. My contributions are valued enough that despite taking away everything else, you still want them from me. I’d be stupid to not quit in this situation, considering I’d be giving you exactly what you want – silenced, but still doing free labor. Unfortunately, I AM stupid, so I have asked for a site un-mute, which should give me back most of the tools I would need. Everything in my brain tells me to quit, but my heart does genuinely love the site deep down. It’s probably just sunken cost fallacy, but it’s really hard to leave when the place I’ve dedicated my life to is so close to perfection. I hope one day RA will get to a state where everyone can be happy – I have a feeling it’ll be close even, but I also have my doubts it’ll ever get there at all. Maybe I’ll find an alternative creative outlet that doesn’t actively want me gone. Only time will tell what the future holds.
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